sLC o7!
[15.06.2007]
sLc o7 is ovEr..
dAy1
wEnt for morNinG rEPorTing... wow.. we wOke up eARLy.. hahaz.. okkies.. finalli sAw cH!! wOo~! hahaz.. misSed him.. but rEalli aR.. don realli feel lyk speAking to him in eNg.. hahaz.. sEeing him maDe me tink bACk of his guidAnce peRIod, not forgEtTing qY! =))) memories...... aFt tt, it rAineD, waitEd for it to sTOp, den we leFt jSs.. aft tt, we cAMe baCk in dA eVeNing for niTewALk.. plaYEd a lil.. dEn leFt..
nite, chitchaTtEd wiv ms tAN.. den we bougHt cup noodLEs.. den ofF to sLeEP!
dAy2
slaCKeD.. woke up onli in dA aFtErnoOn.. hahaz.. skipPed sTand by bUnK.. sRy sAbrIna! dEn rEaCHed at 5++ tgt wiv mq for mtg.. heEs.. damn coOL.. 23rd wAs aLr sEaTed in sTaFf lounge.. mtg wENt on.. i misSed e fEeling of 23rd cuming tgT for a sAme rEAson, sAme aIM.. well, of cos, misSed e dAes when 23rD saT tgt for a sAMe mtg.. heEs.. cooL.. disCUsSed n disMisSed.. heEs.. den we wAitEd.............................................................. finalli, it's coming...
we stood in a cirCLe.. hahaz.. but v noisY.. hahaz.. not cool enuf sia.. haha.. but anw, it wEnt quite ok..
day3
hahaz.. procEeDed to the hall.. got rEaDy.. sTh happenEd at our plaCe.. izZat sAw sth, i feLT sTh.. but... dono.. haahaz.. eEriE lehx.. nvm.. den 2nd round for 23rD sTaRtEd.. hahahz.. realli.. imaGes of 23rD 2 yRs baCk cAme.. we went tHru THAT tGT... sTrong eMo fEeling.. jus dono how to put it into wOrds.. i rMbEd lotS of tingS.. lots of tinGs which 23Rd weNt thrU tgT.. well.. all becAme memoriEs now.. =))
as i did wAd im suppoSed to, i suddenLy found out sTh which realli broke my heArt, disappointEd me.. if i dIn aSk, i wouldnt have knoWn how _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ i wAs... it wAs realli disheArTeniNg.. well.. i'vE done my bEst in my tErm....
it eNdEd, shook haNds, fELt alot.. alot alot.. well, it's ovEr..
morning, took sEc2s for fLaG rAisIng.. hahaz.. wAs leThaRgIc aCtl.. but slowLy, bcaMe more n morE aWake.. heE... morning PT, i went off for a baTH! wo~O! damn shuang.. tHankx yANLi for yr compaNy! den bReAKfAst.. finalli i sAw food.. i wAs sTaRving thruout e nite.. realli.. gAsTrIc if can be judgEd by leVel, i tink my gAsTric prOB wEnt up to e highEsT ever leVel it could eveR get.. hahaz.. omos dieD..
den wEnt for sTand by bunk.. was sToning aT firSt.. nt eNuf sLp (oh ya.. slept for aRd 30 mins onli!! powEr sia! hahaz..) + in pain.. woO~! but in e eNd, i still maNaGed to pull thru! hhaaz.. quite fun.. hope da sEc2s eNjoYed tt SBB.. heEx.. den we leFt..
rEached home, i sLEpt...
Denial, disapproval. Is this what I get after working so DAMN HARD?!
If you think I do not deserve _________ at all, why in the first place you went against your will and now you showed your disapproval so obviously? It's really hurtful. Suddenly I felt so hurt. So hurt by how you react.
One wrong decision caused my lifetime misery. Sometimes I just want to go straight up to you and clear things up. But, I respect you, that's why I held myself back. Now, I don't know if you still deserves my respect!
Oh ya. One more thing. I find myself a substitute. A very convenient one somemore.