y izIt tt aS tYm paSs, e morE im botHeRed?
[21.05.2006]
hmmz.. quite alot tings to sae cos gt many eVents i din blog on tt particular dAe.. orItes.. leT's rEcAP! i tink is tHurs, 18/05/2006, 23rd had our baTch outIng.. we wEnt eAst cOasT paRk.. to cYcle, play n chit chat.. tho' i disLyk cyclinG, but.. orIte la.. if i don cyclE, i 1 perSon walk ma.. den cycle lo.. aft tt, weNt to had our lUnck at mAc, n dEn playeD vball.. hahaz.. yEAH! fun! oso took photos but i haven receive one yet.. nvm.. aft tt, went home.. took wrong bus.. den change bus, den change to train.. aiyA.. mesSy tRIp back homE.. hahaz.. on tRain, we chit chatted lo.. den me n yq went hm to hv dinner, e rESt go jP.. den fRom their eNTrIes, sAw some tings.. but sAe cannot tell me.. lian yq oso din tEll.. ok lo.. den nvm.. eRr.. i tink ttz all for tis outing ba.. a summary laa.. cos i nw v tirEd..
neXt.. toDae, yl,st,yl's sis n her fren + me went to 5566 autograph session.. but they sIgned on small sized pp eHs.. lyk v cheap skate lyk tt.. hhaz.. nvm la.. gt sign n saw dem can liaoz.. we went deRe at aRd 8++ den queued until 2++ 5566 den cum.. aiya. i hate tis la.. owAz late one.. wALiao.. e ting supposed to start at 1pm but came at 2++... nvm la.. dEy da pai ma.. hahaz.. aFt tt, gT their signatUrE!! all four gt look n tok to me.. heEx.. sHuang.. the queueing de xing ku is nt waStED! shuai dAi lE! gt their bottles too.. hahaz... aft tt, met ct.. den we go in imm sit at the food court awhile den went back to bid 5566 farewell.. ahaaz.. xie zhi gege is shuai until~!! wAhsEh.. hahaz.. but renfu oso nt bad..(aft he slimed down).. mengzhe no comment.. shao wei.. aiYO! he 183 club de jing ran gt sTOmaCh lo.. eEeEEe.. hahaz.. *=pPp* den went home le..
aCtl i nt v happi wiv sth la.. but i cant find my position in mentioning my unhappiness wiv the related ppl.. ever since tt incident, i cldn't find my place in the relationship between me n the related ppl.. i dono y.. jus infErioR? tirEd? don wan anymore trouble? or izit jus tt im numb to it oredy.. haiz.. i realli dono.. recently another incident happen.. i meAn even if i don hv the position to noe the matter, at least ** sld hv ritE? nw is not the matter of tt matters anymore.. i jus feel more n more OUT.. tho' i've tried haRd to b sumone who cld be accepted by the related ppl.. n the recent situation has jus seem to get beta den slowly becum we hv to follow the policy of isolationism.. i dono wad yr want u noe.. i feel so EXtRa.. ***** ******* is wad the related ppl owaz described for our relationship.. but.. i don feel it eh... maybe it onli applies to them ba.. sld be tis caSe.. im jus dere to make number nice onli.. i tot ***** ******* are supposed to b able to u noe.. but i don c it.. or izit yr did but onli when im nt aRd.. well.. nvm.. i don wan to zi bi anymore.. the related ppl wan to treat me how, im of no control.. im fine wiv anyting.. as long as yr happi, ok lo.. fine! **owAz ask ppl to b sensitive, owAz ask ppl to tink for others feelings b4 speaking / acting.. but r yr doing so? in my POV, no...**
In Student Council, I have status, power n control. In that relationship, I have nothing but injuries. Aren't this world fair? When you have something you deared for, you lose something important that you once treasured.