NEON c o u t u r e

inFectiOn..

[26.04.2006]

wAa... sIanz.. fRi sTArt eng M-Y-E pp 1 liaoz.. den i guesS is my tOe inFecTed, den now have fEver.. so sWay... juS came baCk from dA doc.. he sAid my fEvEr is rElatEd to e infEcted tOe.. dEN gAve me tOns of meDicine.. 4 tYpes i tink.. yUcKx! but nvm.. eAt le jiu ok liao! heex.. [optImisTIc ya?] hahaz.. orItes..

mid yr cuming liaOZ.. eVerYone bia n bia n bia... c liao oso sCarEd... every1 sEemed so sTrEsSed... hmmx.. aFt mid-yr we shall hv sum fun den prepaRe o liaoz.. haha.. so.. jiayOU! okies.. nth to sAe le.. going off!

I've been waiting for a little concern from you but to no avail. It's time to wake up.

BIG TOE!

[23.04.2006]

yEstd wAs sPeeCh dAE!W we, the sEc4s, peRformeD oUr laSt dAncE (as e office batch).. we sTill gonna perfoRm for naTionaL dAe but tt'll be cAlefE le.. hahaz.. yeStd's peRformANce, to e dAncErs, wAs rAther gD, even beta than wAd we did durIng anti-drug compeTition.. we weRe rather satisFied.. but for mysELf, eVting wAs ok but e laSt posE.... aIyo.. kana sAi.. e leG supposEd to come up but i droP e momeNt i lifTed it up.. hahaz.. i tInk is cos my haNds lost e balanCe ba.. sIanzZz.... if not jiu peRrfEct liaoz... [stupid mx still lafed at me... da bian...] nvm.. memorIEs!!! ^^

aft tt, we all go kfc eAt.. eRr... gt fahmi, mx, me, yanli, yeele, ct, yq, sab, wc, des, izz, khai, gw [sld i forgt any1, sRy..].. aft tt, we weNt jp sHop for izWan's bdAe gIft..(Cao cao n mq joined while we were shoPping).. aft tt, we went yeEle's hse for gYm.. by e tYm, onli leFt me, ct, wc, des, izz n caocao.. me n ct gOnna tRain for 2.4.. ttz y go run.. des,wc,caocao,izz actl were in gym oso, but chased out by security guard.. cos dey were nt in proper attire.. (but i tink it wAs some1 who complained to e security.. hahaz.. assumption onli..) den dEy go SIng.. aft running, me n ct joined dem.. sang while den go home.. i rusHEd to queenie's son's bDae paRty.. but din buy gifT.. so at 6++, we(yc,sha,me,wing) went jp to buy.. bot a teLescOpe for him.. aft tt, took train.. hahaz.. we were so bai chi.. tok n tok n tok until we missEd e station.. so gOtta take baCk agn.. wAste even more tYm.. by e tYm we rEach, i tink orEdy late 8++ le ba.. forgt le.. den we eAt dEre n cclia n sf orEdy dEre.. yc dRanK sOme rEd wine.. den e fAce rEd, aCtions oso lyk dRunk.. hahaz.. dEn e rEst oso becum siao liao.. hahaz.. laFed n laFed n lafEd.. hahaz.. sEhx.. aFt tt, took sOme photos wiv queEnie.. (but haven receive them yeT..will uploaD oncE receive..) den wEnt home liao..

reached home at 1045pm lyk tt.. thanx mdm oh for driving us baCK! den when i reAched home, i rEALised my toe was deteriorating.. i e flEsh cAMe out of e side of e 1st tOe aRd 1 wk aGo.. den now e flesh becAMe biggEr n condition worSeneD.. i din cAre bout it when e fleSh was still small cos i tot it wld recover by itself.. who noes it jus grow n grow n grow.. aIyo... nw, even e aRea aROUNd e injury is sWollen.. sTUpid.. cant wAlk prOpoeRly eHh.. v v v paInful.. my sOt2 dad used e wAx to put on da fleSH!!!! omG!!! tt wAs realli painful lo.. but he sAe it'll make e pUs come out ma.. so ok lo..

e nxt dae, e wAx was still intACt, but gt watery stuff coming out from gAp.. den i took off e wAx.. omG! disGUsTIng!! e whole aRea tt e wax had covered wAs filled wiv pUs.. eEeEee... dAMn er xin lo.. haiz.. i guEss i cldn't run 2.4 liaoz.. cant even walk properly.. sRy ct.. cANt do it agn wiv u.. jiayOU!

hmmz.. i jus hope my toe will rEcovEr aSAp, eXams to be shun li n ______________.. fill in dA blanks yrsELf.. XpPp

Waiting everyday, but did not receive it. I've slowly lost my patience. Should I ever let go, it will only means that I've not forgotten. I let go because I'm hurt even deeper.

oh no...

[17.04.2006]

wAa.. sIanz.. todAe had 2.4km rUn.. sTupid la.. rAN v sloW... no motIvaTIon.. hmMz.. dOno can gEt 'C' aNot.. if not, v wAstEd.. hahaz.. nvm.. aT leAst it's ovER!! yeAH!!!!! no nd rUn in JurOng pARk aNymoRe lE!!!! yeS!!! so sIanz.. eVeRY yR ruN juRong paRk lo.. but now, e nxT cHalleNge --> eXAms... haiz.. eVen morE sIan... eNDUrE!! aFt tis yr jiu paSs one chaLlengE in LifE liaOz!! heEx...

toDae v sHiok..! plaYed vbaLL for a wHile dEn rEst, den go for 2.4.. hahaz.. aFt 2.4, cAMe back sCHool, rEst aWhile, den play vbAll aGn!! woOhOo~!! long tYM din tOuch vball liaoz.. heEx.. damn fUnny!! eVerY1 suaNing "jACkiE" n "cAO cAO".. hahahahahaha!!!!! i laF until cAnnot sE... hahahz.. aLvin tok aR, vEry vERy vERy funniE!!!! hahahz... i cAnt help but to laF when tInk of his worDs.. hahaz.. orItes... wAd a nicE dAe! heE..

Come to think of it, that was beautiful memories. The most beautiful part of my life. But, that will be memories, never to come true again. Am I right?

NAPHA..

[17.04.2006]

toDae had our aNnuaL NAPHA teSt.. so sIAnZz... but aCtl i gt hOpe to gEt gOLd la.. heEx.. proviDEd i gT aT leAst a 'C' for 2.4 tmr.. which is aT leasT 16:11 mins.. wAa.. so sIanz.. tmr 2.4km.... oh no.......... so scARed... nvm.. i will gEt GOLD!!! hahaz.. lying to mySelf is another meThod of motIvaTIon.. seHx...

orIte.. 3 dAes din blog.. leT me tink wAd hv i done... hmMm.. fRidAe = GOod fRIdAy!! alot ppl go sUperboWl de maC do prOPosal.. well.. aCtl deY all miT at 9.. but cos my phOne is cHarGIng in dA living rm, i din sEt aLarm... n i sLept v v v laTe on tHurs.. so, i couldnt wAke up on tYm.. in e enD i tink i rEach at aRd 11++.. haha.. i wEnt dEre ti sTudy cHemisTry.. but sEems lyk.... haha... din realli focUs.. reaLLi cant do gRp studY ar... tho' i lyk e fEeling when eVery1 sit down n study.. haha.. sO cUTe.. aFt tt, i tink wENt home liaoz.. yUP..

sAturDae.. haD chEmisTry rEmedial.. woW~! i simplY loVe mrS tOng's rEmediAL! hahaz.. found it sO cOoL! aCtl we weRe in cOnfErENce de.. but Ms Yeo (VP) came in n sAw our mR fAhmi on dA tAble.. waA.. sIan dIao.. hahaz.. in e enD, we all gOttA move to cHem laB.. hahaz.. nvm la.. cHem laB de fEeling is beTa..tHO' cOnfEreNce rm gt miLo, tEa, biscuiTs, eTc la.. hahaz.. orItes.. aFt tt gT mtG.. den aft mtg, we wEnt food morE eAt.. hahaz.. tt dAe, our mS sEcrEtaRY eYe infEctEd by contAct leNs.. hahaz.. so we decidEd to pay her a "vISIT" [with other motive la.. of cuz..].. hahaz.. we tRying to tEase ....... ... haha.. abit eR la.. but jus for laugHs n eXcitemeNt.. hahaz.. =pPp in e end don hv la.. she visit doc n wan do hMwk ma.. so nv go.. hahaz..

well.. sUndAe.. sAMe old boring dAe.. go tuitIon dEN wEnt home.. i loVe going home fRom tUItIon.. heEx.. cos i wAlked home.. tho' sumtYms abit tIred, but e fEeling wAs gR8.. allows me to tink of many tings.. so i ofTen wALk vEry sLowLY.. heEx.. den rEach home, watch tv den bia hmwk.. lyk tt lo.. sian rite.. hahaz..

okkIes.. lyk tt lo.. nth elSe liaoz.. nxt wK jiu 1st pp for M-Y liaoz.. haiz... tis yr lyk no rEst at all lyk tt.. chiong evDAe.. wondEr if i caN taHan for 1 whole yeAr.. disgUsting fEeling.. haiz.. but every1 has to fAce it.. so.. jiaYOu~~!!! eNDUrE~~!!!!!

[p.s. to one of my fRens.. don be too sTrEssEd hoh... take eVting eASy orItes.. if cANt do anyting, dEN let it be.. u'vE tRied to hElp.. if cANt, dEn.. ya.. rElaX!! sMile morE!! =D eVery1 sEems so sTrEss evdAe.. eSP u..(if u noe who u r).. smiLE!!]

I'm so unused to the feeling of us meeting and not talking at all. But I know I just have to get used to it, and get over it.

tAke the LeaD...

[14.04.2006]

well.. toDae sAMe lo.. sIanZz.. sTh wAs laCKing, but,..... okkIes.. toDae sTh hApPened to my fRens.. vEry sAd.. hAiz.. i sudDenLy rEalisEd cAring for yr fRen is gD, but cAring too much for yr fRen maY becOme a torTurE to yrSelf.. haiz.. tAKeCaRe ya..? *smiLE!! =D*

aFt sCh supposEdly hv vbaLL cheEring sEsSion, but gt sPeEch dAe reheArsaL.. so din go.. haiz.. dANcEd dAMn baDly todAe.. tt sTUpiD maSk la! maDe me loSt all my confIdEnce.. but when took ofF dA maSk, eVting wAs rAthEr orIte liaoz.. so i brOughT e maSk home, hopiNg to wEaR mosT of dA tYm n gEt usEd to it.. haaz.. bi jinG spEech dAe is my laSt peRformAnce liaoz.. hv to do e bEst ma.. heEx..

aFt rEhaErsAL, T.Y.S went jp wAtCh "Take The Lead", a movie on dANce.. aCtl suppoSed to wAtCh 1840 one.. but, e stupiD 240 maDe me n shA wAItEd v v v v v lonG.. so wE misSed e 1840 show.. n wE deciDed to wAtCh e nxT one, which is e 2120 show.. wA.. e sHow loNg sIa.. wAtch unTil 0000 dEn rEach home.. hahaz.. poWer.. i took 240 alone [cos sha took 30] lo.. so sCaRy.. hv to waLk from bussTop to hsE.. my sis msGed sCary tingS to sCaRe me lo.. hhaz.. sTupId.. but im nw sAfe n sOund at home lo!! heEx.. okkiEs.. e sHOw wAs rAther niCe.. altHough gt aloT paRts i din undErStaNd, but i lyk e dANcEs in e sHow.. so cOoL.. all bout ballroom dAnCe.. v coOL~!! heEx.. 3 of us bougHt sAme eAr sTUds.. ribbon de.. but diff coLOur.. coOL!! mine's orANge, sHa's bLue, yOngEn's bRoWn. vEry nicE~!

orITes.. now v laTe le.. im sUPER tiRed.. eYes closIng liaoz.. gotTa sLP!! nitEx~!

I'm sad because it will never be the same as before. Never. Unless you give it a chance.

sIanz..

[12.04.2006]

long tYm nv bloG liaoz.. owAz no tYm to do so.. haiz.. noWadAes so so so so so tiREd!! tESt n tEst n tEst... wAAa~!! sIanzZ!! orItes.. leT me tOk bout yEstd..

11/4, our clAss sLacKed e whoLE dAy.. hahaz.. sTart of da dAe, gOt sCOlded by ms phuA bout our claSs's aTtitUde, disCiplIne, eTc.. scold scold scold den 1 peRiod gone liaoz... her leSson onli 1 peRiod lo.. but she dRaggEd until nxt pEriod, which is PE.. we wEre laTe for PE by 15mins... den mR nuR nt hAppy.. so no PE, go back clSs.. hahaz.. yEA! cos no nd to run!! orItes.. den is MT.. MT gt ting xie.. so took up half da lesson.. den mdm oH wEnt thru lil' bit on gong han.. so sLAckEd agn.. dEn jiu cHemisTry leSson.. mrs tOng went to rEceiVe e indonESia visiTors.. so 2 periods cHem gonE! den rEcess.. aFt tt, e maths.. emaths tEaCher din cum.. slaCK 2 peRiods.. den pHysIcs.. mr lAu came up latE.. budDen he naGgEd [cos we din do well for physics] until end of 1 peRIod.. den 2nd period go thru tEst pp.. aft tt, 2 periods amths lesson.. tEacher din cum!! so in all, we onli had leSsons for 1 1/2 peRIod thruouT da whole dAe!!! wooHoo~!! so we [allan, xiaoai, lingyi, izzat, me, and alot others] maDe use of e fRee periods to wAtch a movIe.. it is called " High School Musical".. sUper niCe ehx.. hahaz..

aFt sCh hv dANce.. den did baSics.. split, jatte, etc.. v tiRing.. lyk rEturn to sEc1 n 2 tYm eHh.. go home jiu v tIred.. din rEalli do alot hmwk jiu sLp liaoz.. cos rEalli rEalli v tired.. oh ya!! i went to colleCt my nEw spEcs le.. heEx.. so happi.. but e colour lyk abit wrong.. aiya.. nvm la.. cos i oso forgt wAds e colour i chose exActly.. so forgt it lo.. hahaz.. ttz all for yEstd..

ritEs.. todAe.. hmmz.. ntH much.. jiu shi go sCh, sTudy, go hOme.. lyk tt lo.. siAnZz.. tMr a maThs tEst.. goTta sTudY.. but, rite nw, my eYes r closIng.. i doubt i'll be aBle to sTudy now.. i tink i beTa go sLp 1sT!! yEa!! "niTeX"!!

When simple motivational words from someone you cared no longer motivates you, he/she has already lost his/her position in your heart.

my jAWs~!! omG!!!

[08.04.2006]

wAa!!! i hAd a bAd sLeEP thruout e niTe eHx.. ridiculouSLy, my jAws [eRr.. actl is e bone under our ears.. which means is e teeth de bone.. i call tt jaws..] weRe sUPEr PainFUL!!! oh my gOoDnesS~! i dono wAd eXacTLy is e sourCe of tt prob.. but tt pAIn wAs undescribable.. jus lyk musCle aChe aFt running 100000km! intolerABle!! i kePt wAking up and meSsaging tt bone but it wAs usEleSs.. tRembLEd lyk hell due to e pain.. so, can u imaGine how painfUl tt WAs.. wALiao.. i tot of taKing pain killers but i din hv e eneRGy to aCtl wALk out of my rM n tAKe.. so forCEd mysELf to endUre e paIn n sLeep cos oncE sleep liao, e pain will not be fELt.. haahz.. orITes.. enuF of dA sTUpiD aChe..

hMmz.. tis morNing wAs supposEd to hv rEmediAL wiv mrS tong for cHemisTry at 0830.. but, i woKe up at 0755! cos din sLP well laSt nite la.. tTz y couldn't wAKe up on tYM.. but, it wAs aMazIng tt i aCtl could rEAch sCh by 0832 and eVen wAs eArliEr den our mR izZat.. hahaz.. wHen he rEaCHed, wE wEnt in to HOD rM to find mrS tOng.. to our sURprISe, she had bought bIG bReaKfast for uS! hahz.. so tOuched.. [jeALOuS!?!! heex.. =pPp] but i din eAt aT firSt.. but dRank dA tEa.. i don wAn to eAt cos in e morNing, im sTill eXPeRIencIng e paIn in my jaws ma.. if i cHew, it'll be more painfUL.. budDen, mrs tonG forCed us to eAt.. hahaz.. so wE aTe e haRsh bROwn during her reMEdIaL.. aft tt, we wENt outside e HOD rm n eAt e bIg bReaKfAst.. aCtl we supposEd to reVise our tEst outSIde, if gt qns, den call mrS tong.. but i nd go do pBL.. den izZat oso wEnt off wiv me.. aFt informing mrS tong, we weNt off le..

i brought e biG brEAkfAst ovEr to yL's hsE n sHaRed wiv yL n yQ.. cos my jaWs still a lil' painfUl.. heEx.. budDen aFt a wHile jiu ok le.. hENg ar.. den we did e bORing pBL.. poOr meiqI.. b4 she could rEAch yl's hsE, it pourEd.. she wAs trapped at the busstOp for quite a while.. den when she reAched, she wAs raTher wEt.. beCame luo tang ji le.. ke lian de mq... orItes.. aFt doing, we wENt to hv lunCh togEther.. went jP n aTe lai lai.. hahaz.. den mq bot a sCissors, i bot a hairband.. jiu went home liaoz..

momeNts l8r, my mum wANs go out n buy sTh.. den she sAe she shun bian bg me to makE sPecs.. dEn jiu followEd her.. my speCs done liaoz.. tUes den cAn colleCt.. not baD la.. is dArk rEd.. [i tink so..] i suddenLY rEalisEd tt aCTl, rEd suits me.. omg! hahaz.. cos yl sAes my rEd eArsTUds go bEta wiv me.. haaz.. sEhx... orItes lo.. hahaz.. aCcept e fAct.. dEn bot my mum's sTuff wEnt home liaoz..

ttz all for toDAe's aCtiviTIes.. my paRents going M'sIa dono is tmr or on mon, dono till when.. to visit my grANdma.. so tMR i hv to go tuition mySelf lo.. so sIanz.. owAz is my mum pei wo de.. haahz.. nvm.. okkIes.. sTop heRe ba.. buhbye!

Sometimes being alone is good. That moment allows us to think and reflect. That's why i'm all right with being alone now.

hmMx.. sHen li si bie..

[07.04.2006]

hMmx.. toDae wEnt to sCh eArly cos gT mtG.. [supposEd to be.. but.. hahaz.. our baTch perFOrmeD our forTe.. =pPp heEx..] well.. anw, jUs rEach sCh jIu sAw sTh i dOn wAn to.. hAi.. i've bEen imagining tT sCene.. but, i nV wAntEd tt to hAppen.. wEll......... it hAppeNed... hmMm.. it's tYm to wAKe up n fAce dA reaLitY.. ha..... okKiex.. cOntinue.... dEn gOt PE.. rAn 2 rouNds sCh compOunD aGn.. sIanz.. eVtime rUn run run... wALiaOz... haTe it... but.. orItes la.. did imprOVe lil' bIt.. so.. not wAStEd.. aFt dA rUn, sWEaT lyk hEll.. haha... loVe tt fEelinG! =pPp hMm... dEn nth intErEStIng liaoz..

aFt sCh gT dANce.. toDAe so sHiok!! sudDenly fElt sUPeR eNthu.. full of eNeRgY!! hahz.. dEn wEnt for sPeeCh dAe rEheaRsal in da hAll.. tt wAs so wArm + we dAnce wiV our migHt.. wOo~!!! dEn sWeAt lyk hell agn.. tis tYm rOund eVen morE worSe thAn aFt e run.. hahaz.. so cOoL.. wEt all ovER! hahaz.. dEn wEnt up to muSIc rm aFt rEheaRsal.. ms qUeENie tAUght us a neW "jatte" hahaz.. a grAcEful juMp wiv leG splIttinG, fOrming a 180 dEgReez.. but e nEW one wAs, gRaCeful jump, open dA leGs, but kip e fROnt leG.. diff to imaGine rItEs? haha.. nvm.. it's ok.. but i rEalli lOvEd tt sTEP.. it wAs so niCe~! dEN, e moDErn dAncErs wEre beIng puniShed.. hahaz.. cos we wEre too noisY.. so gOttA sPlit e whole sTrETcH of coRridOR.. wow~! hahaz.. e fLoor wAs so dAMn dirTy lo!!! den when wE gEt up, leg, hands wEre dirTy.. tt cEcIlia usEd her dirTy hands and touch my baCk(skin)!!!! aAaRrRgGHhh~!!!!! diSGUSTinG!!!!! haha... but i managed to gEt it cLeaned.. haha.. sEhx.. orIte.. dEn b4 i wEnt off, wE rEcAp some dAncEs we dAncEd laSt tYm.. wOW.. sudDenly rEalisEd we rEalli had done loTsa worKouts n peRformancEs ya.. hahaz.. den i weNt down le.. coS gT meEt-the-paRentS sEssion..

meEt-tHe-paRents sEssion sWeAt agn.. so maNy laSt min tIngs.. but managEd to gEt dEM done.. tHnx sEc4s! =)) sWeAt tHrice a dAe.. aS in, sWeAt le, dRy up, sWeAt le, dRy up and dEn sWeAt le, dRy up aGn... hahaz.. disGusTing riTe?! heEx.. seHx.. bAd tIng hAppened liaoz.. hahz.. wHile i Was waLking dOWn e sTairs, on dA wAe to clAsSrm, sUdDenly, fElt sth in my leFt leG.. i tink i pull dAo my leG liaoz.. sIanz.. haha.. sUre is due to dA sPlit de.. cos my leFt leg de sPlit nT gd.. dEn purposEly forCed it down.. maYbe ttz y huRt ba.. aIyo.. nw wAlk lyk cRipPle lyK tt.. e leG cANt sTrAigHteN.. haaz.. so fUnnIe.. but dA paIn is sUddEnly cUm den sUDdenly go.. hahaz.. wEird.. orItes.. it will be fIne aFt sum tYm..

bAd neWs to sHaRe.. haiz.. my raBbit is dEad.. haiz............. it paSsEd aWay yeStd niTe.. i wAs nt infoRMed.. my daD din tell me.. haiz.. i onLi rEaLisEd it tis morNing.. my hEaRt sANk riTe to dA botTom.. hAiz.. sO sAd.. i rmBed eVdAe when i go sCh, i hv a habit of loOking aT it while wAiting for dA liFt.. haIz.. tis morNing, sUdDenLy, it wAs gOne.. iT's tYm for me to sTOp my hAbit le.. haiz... sAd... n my my gRAndMa oso nt vEry orIte.. she's in M'sIa.. hosPitAlisEd fEw dAes aGo.. wEll.. e dOc had aSked for us to be prEpaRed for e wOrst.. my heArt sANk e 2nd tYm.. she tOok cAre of me wHen i wAs yOung cos my mum wAs worKing.. which meANs, sHE wAs e one wHo brOught me up.. dEN she gOt sIck.. heR illness [i tink is due to ovErworKing.. cao lao guo du] worSened.. e laSt tYm i sAw hEr, sHe wAs leFt wiv onLi bones n sKin.. she couldN't tOk, haD difficULty wAlking, eAting, eVting.. she neEds heLp from ppl in orDer to leAd a normal lifEsTyle.. simple tinGs lyk going to toiLet, or eVen opeNing of eYes.. she hAd difficuLty doing so.. loOking at heR situaTion, tEaRs welled up liaoz.. but, of cos dEy din rOlled down.. jus fELt vEry vErY vEry sAd.. i hAd memorIes wiv heR.. sUdDEnLy, sHe beCame lyk tt... hmmmz... *sigh* i dono wAd to do.. i could do ntH to hELp heR.. all i cOuld do wAs to sTaRe at heR n fEel e pieRce in my heArt.. tt was reaLLi a fEeling of heLpleSsneSs.. i rEalli wisHed tt sHe could be norMal and all wEll aGn.. i din haD lotSa tym wiv heR when sHe wAs pink in hEalTh.. noW, eVen if i hAd all e tYm in e wOrLd, i doubT she'll be aBle to rEPly to wAdeVer i sAe to heR.. haiz.. rEalli xin tong [heArt pain].. i wAn to visIt her.. maYbe during e goOd fRi hol.. if i don go, i wOndEr when will i c her agn.. or eVen, no morE chance le.. im rEalli dOwn.. i doNo wAd to do.. i COuld onLi visit n sTaRe at her.. haiz.. i hAte tis kinDa fEeling...

tis woRLd is cRuel.. all humAn beings hv to fAcE dEaTh.. haIz.. fAce it.............................

Life is short. Treasure time, people around you, opportunities given to you to make friends before there is no time left.

i dun lyk tis fEeling..

[04.04.2006]

aIya.. finaLLi hv tYm to sIt doWn n bLog liaoz... toDae haD physiCs tEst.. wA.. sIanz.. hahz.. so maNy donO.. dEn mR aLVin LAu sTand in fROnt me, sAYing tis " wA.. y u sO slOw.. hUrrY up ah.." wA.. siaN dIaoz.. im sTuck at an eAsy qn sE.. orEdy heAdAche liaoz.. den he lyk tt.. hahaz.. nvm la.. it's OVER!!! =pPp oh ya.. mrS tOng n i fInaLLi arrANgE a tYm for rEMedIal lo!! yEah.. my cHem gt hElp lo! hEex..

orIte.. hmmz.. i dun lyk tIs kinDa fEeling.. bEing tIEd by sTUdiEs.. wAn do wAd oso cANnot.. sIanz.. how sLd i dEscRibe lehx.. err.. yA po gAN... hahz.. sIanz.. n oso dIn noE if maDe dA ritE choIce... dEre aRe [let me count..] a tOtal of 4 fRusTraTing tIngs on my minD eVdAe.. haIz.. haTe tis fEeLing.. hmMz.. im gOing bonkErs.. hahaz.. for the 1st tIng, i dono if i sLd fEel =)) or =(( .. for dA sEconD ting, it's dA moST sAdDening.. haiz.. e 3rd tIng, loSt motIvaTIon.. but, i wiLL find my motIvaTion bAck.. for e laSt tIng, will be cUred.. hahahaz.. chimoloGy?? well, onli i undErSTand.. or maYbe u do too? hahaz.. if u do undersTand, tAG!! =pPp

haiz..ok la.. eNd heRe ba.. sTill gt lOtsa hMwk wAIting for me.. *sigh*

I HOPE THAT EVTING WILL BE GOTTEN OVER SOON.. ESPECIALLY O LEVELS!!!!!!!!!

I don't want to face the cruel reality. Or is it just that I do not have the courage to face it? No one knows.

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[03.04.2006]

orItex.. jus caMe back fRom sCh.. i wAna tOk bout yEStd.. yeStd wAs cSS gRand fInALz.. our sUpeRstAr yANgCe wAd dAMn cHio lo.. hahaz.. sO cuTe wIv tt hAirStyLE n dA dANcE sTepS!! wooHhoO~!! bu kui shi wo men de supERsTaR!! ai si ni le!! budDen wAs nt veRy haPpi wHen rEsults wAs shown.. hahaz.. cos zHi yaNg wOn ma.. but.. ok la.. he dEsErvEs it.. he sANg wEll.. he peRformeD well.. i jus wAN tEreSa to wIn la.. hahz.. cos my imprEssIOn of tErEsa is bEta.. heEx.. but aNw, both of dEM did wEll.. heEx.. [but still i enjoy listening to tereSa morE.. =pPp]

okkIex.. tok boUt todAe ba.. toDAe.. sAMe la.. siANz lo.. or maybE more siaNz..? hahaz.. dono la.. aIYa.. todAe rEceiVed dA neWs of After School Academic Programme!! in sHort, ASAP...wAHsEh!!! is on mOn, tHurs n sAt(if tEachers request on sAt).. hmm.. mon n tHurs is sTudy until 5pm leHx.. hahaz.. sIanz.. nvm.. wei le wo men de jiang lai!!! hv to enDURe!! well.. im lookinG forWaRd to dAes aFt o.. i'll go woRk wiv sHa n yE as promisEd.. heEx.. dEn go plAy lyk maD, eAt, sLp, plaY wiv all my fREnX!! woOhoO~!! tis is dEN called LIFE! now is hELL.. hahaz.. hmmz.. owRitEz.. but for e tYm being... sTUdy......... -_-

hmM.. xin qing bu shi hen hao.. but wo xiang xin ming tian hui geng hao... haiz... dan yuan ru ci!

One moment of unhappiness will take away ten moments of happiness. Is it worth it? Probably. If only you use that moment of unhappiness on someone or something who is worth your ten moments of happiness.

foUL dAe.. + lUAN!

[01.04.2006]

haiZ.. so sIan toDae.. sTOmaCh ki siao.. midniTe run tOilEt run for a long tym.. go tOileT, sLp, sTomachaChe, sHit.. hahaz.. tis is da cYclE i wEnt tHru thrUout da nite.. sIanz.. den la n la n la.. until 9++ woke up n msGed yl n izzat.. haha.. couldn't maKe it to dA mtG liaoz.. so sTayed at hOme n la lo.. hahaz.. nw fEeling qUite orITe liaoz.. physical orite, menTal not.. haiz.. sth's on my mind.. but cANt sae.. haha.. cOntRadiCT!

well.. i wanNa rEpeAt my prEvioUs post.. tis worLd is full of cOntRAdicTions.. kou bu dui xin.. siaNzz.. ming ming hen bu kai xin, que yao shuang zuo yi qi dou ok.. wAhsEh.. very tErrible.. aiYa.. wAdeVer it is, tYm will fAde off eVting, incLuding rEgREts.. hmmz.. nt tt it's jus me.. jus tt if don let it fAde, wAd can i do?! hahaz.. nvm.. cRApss..

todAe is aPril fOol! haha.. hope tt e bAd neWs is juS to fool me.. ha..[rAther impossibLe..]

To like someone, you need a day. To love someone, you need a minute. But to forget someone, you need to spend a lifetime.